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Fear, Faced

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind – 1 Timothy 1:7

“I will not abandon my blog” I have been saying this for about two months now. And this blog sat abandoned. Every week I said I will jump in, but I didn’t because I was too afraid to admit that at some point, I needed help, I needed to revise, and I needed a break.

This morning, I had no choice but to face this. I signed up to host a book tour on a separate blog. The tour is for today so I had to log into my wordpress account to post the media kit.

It had been a while since I went anywhere near my blogs, but it did not kill me. Actually, it felt great to push the publish button.

Right after this publishing, I had one more thing to do. I wrestled yesterday with asking for help and I had no choice but to ask for help today. Now that I think of it, it seems ridiculous. The help I needed was to retrieve a telephone number so that I could make a call on behalf of my church. (I had misplaced a business card)

I have behaviors and fears that I learned. As a child, when I made mistakes, I had to face the consequences. (I won’t get into them today, I started typing about it and decided to erase)

Fear faced, Three things accomplished. Two blogs posted. Phone call made. Stronghold tearing down.

If there is something you need to pick back up, writing, blogging, diet, exercise… go for it today. Don’t let fear hold you back.

Time for coffee, and to power up my day.

ayoka-boyce-iwriteAyoka Boyce ~ Minister, Author, Blogger, Lover of Coffee

 

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This is Where it Went Wrong

And do not give the devil an opportunity [to lead you into sin by holding a grudge, or nurturing anger, or harboring resentment, or cultivating bitterness] ~ Ephesians 4:27 (Amplified Bible)

I can’t rehash this week without taking a good, hard look at myself.

Yesterday afternoon, I knew I needed to run away for a few hours. I had a full tank of gas so I drove 2 hours to Virginia Beach. I arrived at my sister-friend’s house look feeling tired and beat up. I thought that I would writie last night, but all I could do was go into a restless sleep.

This morning, God led me straight to Ephesians 4. Have you ever been ‘told-off’ of ‘read’ or ‘checked’ by someone? Well, I was checked this morning. I am not newbie. I am supposed to be mature in Christ. No matter what was going on at work, I was supposed to know better.

5 things I did wrong this week

By not doing these five things, I gave strength to the strongholds. I didn’t tearnthem down this week.

  1. I gave place to the devil. I let him whisper all kinfs of negativity in my ear and I eagerly listened. I allowed him to play on me feeling self-righteous
  2. I did not take authority over my emotions. I knew better but I allowed myself to sit in anger and pity
  3. I did not resist. I should have stopped it after one day (that is the Word). I let my anger seethe past the maximum amount of time and sure enough I left the door open for the most unimaginable feelings of self doubt, pity and depression.
  4. I did not fortify my faith. I let this tear my faith down. I was supposed to jump in the Word. I should have spent at least one night in bed with Bible and let God minister to me. My weapon was available. Note to self – My weapon is the Word of God not an angry tongue.
  5. I did not go into intercession for this. I went straight into my emotions. I identified the strongholds in my life but what about the strongholds that exist at the job. I know there are issues but I only identified the ones that directly effected me.

Now that I am awake, literally and figuraively, it is back to business. There is work to be done: blogs to write, books to write, strongholds to be torndown. Plus I have to drive back home today, two hours in the rain. I am equipping this body with the Word and a cup of coffee.

Enjoy this beautiful rainy Saturday. Power up your day with the Word (it is always good)  and a good cup of Coffee!

Ayoka Boyce ~ Minister, Author, Blogger, Lover of the Word and Coffee

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